2006 - Year of the dog indeed

It's the 18th of March....I haven't been here for quite a while...
Everybody's being so selfish lately.
Stuff happened & I feel horrible...I'm faking my mood at work and it seems to go quite well.
It only showed on my Birthday cos then I was really upset. My friends didn't know what was wrong & I believe that've made some of them kind of furious at me. I've just ruined everyone's day back then...including my own.
I like staying at work these days...it makes me forget what's depressing me...a bit.
And I really hate it at home, cos it makes me think of it all the time...makes me think of how it's my turn for being the black sheep of the family.

Now you know what wrong!

Old Thoughts

I had this thought when I young, which I never shared with anyone, that school is just a big jail where they lock up kids from as early as 8 in the morning till late noon, under the alleged excuse that they're being taught. As a kid, and by kid I would refer to when being a very young kid that is still in its preliminary days, I never understood the concept of having to wake up that early to be taught anything, and why can't it wait for when I'm not sleepy enough!! Personally, the part of my life I spent at school was the worst ever. And not that it was worth it, but I did discover later on, that the amount of knowledge I might've gained due to being taught from as early as 8 till noon, can actually be compared to what my little baby sister knows. In short, and to emphasize things even more, lets just say that, I promised myself never to set foot on school ground ever again after graduation!

Deserted!!

Wow, my blog appears so deserted...I forgot why I decided to create one in the first place!!

Baby Showers

My new niece's baby shower was yesterday. Do you know that people out there -in certain societies I mean- do that before the baby's born...can't really understand why!
Anyways, there were too many kids yesterday and they were so noisy. I don't understand why at certain age they get to be so unbearable. And considering of course, the fact that I'm kind of an impatient, short tempered and restless person, this was not the place for me.
Yet, I had to stay for a while, after all this is my niece and that's my brother and I did had to drive mum back home with me!!

Wondering about my niece, well, it was weird, cos I actually can't believe it's ours yet! She looked so tiny and ... I don't know, I guess I've been pretty occupied with having one niece (yes, there's a first one) that I even didn't notice my bro's wife was preparing for another one already!!
Everyone keeps saying she looks exactly like the first one...how can they still remember the first one when she was bored 3 years ago...they sure have memory of steel!!

I don't know why I wanna say that but I'm gonna say it anyways, afterall that's what a blog is for right?! Ok, well, there's one good thing about goin to these Sebo3's ... I go home feeling good about myself!! I feel glad I'm not that person who's got some really tough times to come and I feel glad I'm not some noisy kid! And I'll just leave the rest unmentioned for now.

Hasta Luego,

Maligna

Mood To Be Avoided

I guess it was just me then, I mean, I can’t just go nuts for two whole days and then become just fine on the third.
For two days, I couldn’t get a hold of myself. I was depressed, annoyed and dull for no good reason. And I know people were starting to hate me…if they hadn’t already of course.
I have to admit, I ate too much chocolates then. Well, they say it’s an anti-depression thing and I really wanted to get out of it in any way possible.

I guess I’m just being too much judgmental and negative about some issues. I should care less about those matters which are bothering me, otherwise I’ll probably become an elephant from too much chocolate.

Déjà vu

Has anyone ever had that feeling of deja vu. The feeling that you've actually been through this experience once before ... the feeling that you're making the same mistake all over again ... the fact that you're just not learning.
Well how about the feeling that you've been through the same experience more than just once and the fact that you're making same mistakes over and over and over again!!!
How can that ever be fixed? Is there a way?


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Internet Hassle

It gets a bit crazy sometimes when I find no one to talk to. I feel so isolated and sometimes I start picking up on strangers, whom I very well know how to frustrate ... I always end up winning and they always end up puzzled.
I remember my sister (who's not like that at all) once puzzling a chatter and telling him that she's a super intellegent 3 year old. The chatter actually bought it....quite clever, isn't she;)?!